Showing posts with label pity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label pity. Show all posts

25 September 2009

like charlie brown...

...an overwhelming wave of self-pity is slowly consuming my thoughts, as of late.

i want to be somewhere else- not stuck here for the remainder of my grad program. i read about where my friends are (either in life, or quite literally where they are in the world) both via blogs and the ubiquitous facebook and wish i was the one having the grand adventures. i realise that going back to school and pursuing further knowledge is an adventure in itself, but one that- at least for the time being- requires me to a) stay physically put, in close proximity to school and b) makes "responsible" decisions that are affected directly by the fact i have to remain put.

no taking long trips- can't afford them, can't miss class/work, who'd watch the kittens?
must have at least one source of income- to afford staples/ rent/ food/etc. which means no long trips
no "me time"- have to do homework, read class materials, spend time in transit to/from class
can't afford a car- so it takes forever to get anywhere, also prevents day trips of any kind
local friends are all busy- in school/work/etc. and right now, all have more income


GOOD GRIEF.

anyone have a football???